♥, i’ll be your heart protector

Turns On

2010-10-12T19:58:00.000-07:00

A guy..

With a big sense of humor
Who smiles alot
With a cute smile
Who has dimples
Who dresses nicely, not like a slob
Who can sing, dance, etc. definately
Who can keep up a conversation
Who has good grades
Who talks to me first!
Who has good hair
Who gives good hugs with both arms
Who isnt a player
Who loves me for I am

I heard you’re a player-

2010-10-12T19:55:00.000-07:00

So let’s play a game. Let’s sweet talk. Let’s play fight. Let’s talk 24/7. Let’s tell each other good morning and good night every day. Let’s take walks together. Let’s give each other nicknames. Let’s hang out with each others’ friends. Let’s go on dates. Let’s talk on the phone all night long. Let’s hold each other. Let’s kiss and hug. And whoever falls in love first? Loses.

he lost.

wanna try >:D

Minepot Ko (:

2010-10-05T23:39:00.000-07:00

My Life. My Everything. My Forever.. Minepot Ko :) I Love You Minepot KO.

- Chrisrhian013(:

*2012 Friendship.

2010-10-05T23:32:00.000-07:00

Meet. F4-KAMI-OJT (: We called, 2012 Friendship.

Nagstart ang friendship. Yun time na laban ni Pacman last November2009. Binalak namin manood ng 2012, same off kami lahat. Oh well. After kami nanood Haha :)) Kain sa Zippy's ahem. Pass 1 am na kami umuwi. Theme song pa namin. Do you remember-Jay sean & Down also. Yun tunog sa radyo that time. Have a good times together. Havin fun. Gala everywhere. Kahit saan. Ahem ! Ahem.. Pagalitan na pero basta nagsaya. Oh well ! :) That's it. -- Marian ( KAMI ) ..

F4; Melvin.Dominic.Mico.Ianne
KAMI; Karen.Arlyn.Marian.Irene.
OJT; Carmelo&Peejay.

Bow. (:

2010-10-05T23:13:00.000-07:00

Nakaupo. Para naghinhintay ng tama panahon. Makasama at Makita? Sa pagupo ko sa tabi na toh! Iniisip ang bawat araw na kasama ka at katabi ko. Pero ngayon. Hinahanap ko ikaw. Ikaw ng buhay ko. Sana sa muling pagkikita natin. Katabi at kasama na kita. Tatlo taon ng pagkakawalay sayo pero hindi ako nawalan ng pag-asa na muli ka makita. Maghintay ka lang mahal ko. At malapit na. Mahal na mahal kita.

-Minepot ko. C:

October 3, 2010

2010-10-05T00:23:00.000-07:00

Open ko facebook niya. Noon nagout na ako. Then, Nakita ko online siya? Nagtaka me refresh ako ng refresh still PM ko siya di naman reply. :( After that tumulo na luha ko. Like I feel? Iniiwasan niya ako para ganoon tipo? Katext ko Haupia ko *Barkada niya* then noon di ko na kaya tinawagan ko siya. Nag-usap kami. Sinabi niya if ever di niya reply eto sinabi ko na sasabihin means ala na kayo. Then bigla siya nagreply. Sabi ko tatawagan ko siya. Ayon. .

.... on the phone.

nagtext siya. then ayon nagusapan kami linaw sa aken. happy ako. ayos na kami. mali ako. nahihiya ako tuloy. tama! kaya ginawa niya maxado na ako di na nagtitiwala sa kanya. ahaixt! ayun 7am na ako natulog. 4hrs :) ayip.! lokohan namimiss ko mga yun. umiyak pa ako noon narinig ko yun sinabi niya. alam ko umiyak din siya dun sa sinabi ko.

... next day.

di ko expect, nagtext siya super sweet niya nga eh! :) mahal na mahal ko siya. minepot ko. :)

share.. share ..

Happy 2nd Anniversay Betch ♥

2010-10-05T00:18:00.000-07:00

Happy 2nd anniversary betch. ü wii antgal na nten. :D sna lalo pa tumagal ang friendship nten. :) w/♥ can't wait to see yah betch. :D ~ Bati ng Betch KO (:

I still remember. Still refresh in my mind. When our friendships start. Because of my boyfrand. Haha! Kasi noon binalikan me ng boyfriend ko. I thought siya yun online? yun pala c Robert ( betch ko ) ayun. Medyo taray dating ko noon. Lucky naging friends kami.

love ko yan. 2yrs na. More more.. ngayon ko lang nxer ii..

Saka ..

2010-09-23T01:30:00.000-07:00

Saka okay na lahat sa akin. Tanggap ko na. Kung bakit? Hinayaan na kita kahit nasasaktan ako lagi. Di ko na alam? Di ko na alam saan pa ako lulugar sayo. Parati na lang ganoon. Ngayon na gingawa ko mgmove on. pra d ko na mrmdman un sket na nr2mdaman ko now. Anu na ba lugar ko sayo? Lalapit ka lang if gusto mo? I try .. Di ko lam hnggan kailan ako mgHOLD ON. Di ko na ren kaya pagod na ako. parati na lang. :( Sabi mo sa aken. kahit bc ka my time ka pren. Anu na? Asan na un? Babawi ka? Let's see. I want provement? :( I'm tired. Oo naiintindhan kta. Pero feelings ko? Never na kita maramdaman, Di ko ren alam if mahal mo pa ren ako.! I'm stupid. Mahal kita kahit nasasaktan ako. Nagtitiis ako dahil yun sabi mo. Naghihintay ako parati sa wala. Gusto ko maramdaman mo yun nararamdaman ko. I'm worthless na. Gusto ko sumigaw, Ngayon nabuhos ko na lahat ng sama ng loob ko. Wala na natira sa aken. Lahat nagawa ko na. Masaklap pa. Hindi nagpaparamdam. Di ko alam anu na lugar ko. Sorry. But I need to Move On & to Let Go ! :'( Sana maramdaman mo naman kung anu nararamdaman ko. Subra manhid mo. Halos yung taong nakilala ko at minahal ko ng iba na. Asan ka nun kailangan kita. Nag-iisa na ako di na kita madama. Noon sinasabhan mo ko ng mahal kita halos para wala na yun dating sa akin. Prove it. Prove it. Until I'm finally Gone :(

Love.

2010-09-19T19:38:00.000-07:00

Gaano ba magmahal? Masasaktan ka talaga? Gaano ba if ipinaglaban mo na nga? It's not worth it. All your efforts same din. What should I do? Do I need continue this what we called LOVE. Bakit hindi ba pwede paghandaan if masasaktan tayo? Masaktan na tayo bigla if ayaw natin masaktan at di ready? Bakit gaanon? Bakit pa pinagpapatuloy natin yun kung alam ko na nga nagpapakatanga ako sa taong ang tingin sayo worthless. All those worthless tears it's not even worth it. Why we need to cry? to ease the pain? pero yun pain still di nawawala. Why we need to smile if it's fake? Just pretend that we're okay? Why love is like this? Kailangan ko na ba sumuko? Maybe we're not meant to be. Accept the fact di ba? That's true naman. Ako kasi di ko matanggap. I rather stay single forever. Never na ako magmamahal. Okay na sa aken kahit ganito? Never pinpahalagahan. Pero babangon ako inspite of all trials. Thanks God for the pain. I'm speechless ! :/

I don't mean those words.

2010-09-19T11:55:00.001-07:00

Sorry for the words I wrote down over here. I don't mean to say that. Galit umiral sa akin. I don't even think about it na may masasaktan ako. Nasaktan ako sa mga nalaman ko. Sana man lang direct nio na sa akin yun gusto niyo mangyari. Tao lang naman ako nasasaktan. Kung simple bagay na hihilingin niyo tulad ng ganoon may ibibigay ko naman eh kung yun talaga nais niyo. Kung doon ka sasaya. Di ko naman ipagdadamot yun eh. Kung ganoon pa. Para masakit sa mata na mabasa at masakit rin sa tainga if maririnig ko man. I'm sorry for being mean to those words I written down. Mistake ko. Never ko pa inaask yun person na involve. Una. Di pa ako nagatanong sa kanya. Pangalawa. I depend those words na wala pa provement sa taong involve. Di ko nman sinsabi na kasinungalingan yun may nagsabi sa akin. What I mean, Never ko pa siya inask if true or hindi. Pangatlo. Bigla na lang ako nagsulat na di ko pa alam yun buong nanyari if tama ba yun hinala nila or hinala ko. I feel sorry about myself and I feel so ashamed too. Sorry. Thanks for reading my blog. Gusto ko lang sabhin lang niya maiintindhan ko naman eh. Huwag lang siya gagawa ng anu mali. Concern ako dahil ayaw ko pagdaanan niya yun consequences. Mahal ko yun taong toh. Kung hanggan dito na lang talaga. Wala na ako magagawa. Let's face it. Always stay positive. Thanks for those Unforgettable Moments. I will cherish that forever. :) I will still the same. I'm always be fine.

Minsan.

2010-09-16T23:50:00.001-07:00

Minsan kaya naiisip din niya ako? o kaya namimiss man lang? Minsan kaya gusto niya din ako makausap? Minsan ba sumasagi ako sa isip niya? :'( Minsan. Minsan. Eto nanaman ako. Umiiyak. Kasi namimiss ko siya. Sumasagi sa isip ko yun minsan ba na yun eh talaga minsan sumasagi o naiisip niya din ako? Sana nga. okay, nights !

Meet My Nomo :]

2010-09-15T01:01:00.000-07:00

I'm tungaks and her tangeks. oha ! :D kyot noh. new bebe :) best of best friend. ayep! short cut. ngeks at ngaks. aisus ! est: 09152010 :D

Bitter Ako. Madrama Tae. Lagot?

2010-09-14T20:38:00.000-07:00

Haha. Lately. Super bitter ako sa mga giems. Akala mo naman foreals? Haha :]] Malakas tama ko now. Hello. Di ako nakatake. Maybe ! LMAO :D I'm happy. Emo emohan dn ako. Bad ako! Pati Rel'n Status ko pinagtripan ko ren. Naging In Rel'n to Single to Complicated. Hohoho ! Ayan pagmakita niya yan tanong yan? Why? Asa ako if magtatanung yan. Life goes on. I never feel your presence but still you belong to my heart. Ayaw ko ibalik what you've done to me. Pero ikaw na lang makakarealize yan. Iniiwan mo lang ako sa ere. But still I'm always here for you.

I'm still the same. Your Only One ! :] If you leave me. Still I stay. I'm not expecting in love return. That's the real love I felt for you. Thanks for everything. Happy to be with you always. I know trials won't separate us but trials make us strong. No one can break us apart. I love you very much. Minepot ko ! :) My treasure. My Everything. My life.

Happy 41st Monthsary.

2010-09-13T18:44:00.000-07:00

Last Monthsary Ever. No more Monthsaries & Anniversaries to celebrate at all. Ready to face the challenge by my own. Gets? Single is cool. No Heartaches. No problems. No Arguing. But I can deny it. I'm still missing those Fightings. Arguing. Sweetness. Whatever ! :D Be Free ! Single ME ! & I'm Happy. Singleblessedness ..

Haixt! Madrama lang ako dito :( Monthsary para hindi eh! Miss ko na siya.

People Change.

2010-09-12T21:12:00.001-07:00

People Change. The person I know a lot, change a lot. I can't even recognized him at all. You act like I'm just a stranger. Yes, I can say that. You changed a lot. Why? You never know? Nowadays, You're acting like you don't even care me at all.

I don't like the way you changed. Cause it hurts me a lot :(

2010-09-12T21:09:00.000-07:00

From every wound there is a scar, and every scar tells a story. A story that says, I survived.

2010-09-12T21:01:00.002-07:00

There are three types of people in this world: those who make things happen, those who watch things happen and those who wonder what happened.

2010-09-12T21:01:00.001-07:00

Don't let past and useless details ruin your existence.

Two Paths. What I'm Gonna Choose?

2010-09-12T20:59:00.000-07:00

What if I were to say there was only two paths in life and one day you were to in-counter it. What would you do? Would you take the path on your left, the path that's well-worn or the path on your right, that's for people who dare to do something extraordinary. Do you want to be just like the others? Living an completely normal life-style where everything is done simply, or the one that is much more harder but there is better benefits in there?

Once you take this path, you're forever on it. You can't turn back and you can't make any second thoughts once you step foot. So what's it gonna be? When the time comes, you will choose, don't make the mistake of choosing the wrong one because you may regret it for the rest of your life.

What I Missed the Most !

2010-09-10T21:34:00.000-07:00

My life. My memories. What I really missed. Them. My Home. School. My Daily Routine. Food. Fun. Moments. Him !

Philippines : I missed the fun. food etc. Hanging out with my friends. Going somewhere. My cousin tambayan sa labas, papasok na sa bahay ng passed 11 haha. Saka magtext pa magdamag. Aguy ! pagwala magawa mangapitbahay ka na kumpleto na araw mo. haha ! boredom? ay wala un. Kalaro mga pamangkin. Basketball & Badminton Moment. Barbecue sa kanto. Kakain ng Empanada sa Plaza. Punta kayla Tiang Mameng kakain ng mami nea. Halo Halo sa katabing tindahan. Magtwag ng fishball if may dadaanan. Lolokohin yun baliw. Kantahan sa labas. Bike na ren. Sayawan moment. Inuman? Bad ! Hiraman ng cp. Pasahan ng lod. Sigawan moment para kumain. Tuksuhan moment ren. Cruising? :]] Tambay sa com. shop pra lang mgfriendster. makikipagkita kay boyfriend ng sa gabi. :'> maliligo sa ulan. if malamig ayun d na mhiwalay sa kumot. pabali ng pandesal sa bakery shop with pepsi syempre. tuwin friday naman young people's day. den saturday practice naman ng choir after choir maghahatid with my fellow young people den biruan moment kwentuhan eber. tuwin sunday. after church naman. ayon marme pgkain akala mo kng may occassion hah! duh? :DD manonood ng SOP. minsan may pnpntahan kmi. pagmy occassion namimiss ko. ayon salo salo with my family and relatives. I missed the fun. High School isa pa sa namimiss ko. After test ayon gala kahit saan. Pagwala teacher. Ayun kaingay ng room. Kahit naman meron noh! Napapagalitan kami kaso prang wala lang. tuwing fiesta din. nyaks. syempre manonood sa plaza eh. peryahan dn syempre. ohhhh !! :DD Makikipagway din. Hahah :)) Christmas Missed ko ren. New year too. All Saints Day. Lahat ng Family andoon. Pero pinagkait sa akin ang kabataan ko. Huhuhu :(( 16 ko noon. pumunta ako dito. Namimiss ko parin mga bagay bagay na d ko makakalimutan. Mas mabuti na lang kamote ulam ko masya na ako. kahit wala ako laptop kahit d ako nakapunta sa America aisus ginoo. masakit sa ulo. waley na eh!

My life as a teenager almost gone. I have 3mons. left den goodbye teenage life. welcome to responsible life. being an adult. oh my ! :P

Ang pinakanamimiss ko talaga. Siya. ! Namimiss ko bawat ngiti niya. mga kyot na mata. aisus. kinikilig na ako dito. Sana nakakasama ko siya ngayon, Sana d kami magkhiwlay. Ngayon unti unti ko na siya di nakikilala. Hindi na siya tulad ng dati. Wala na ren ako halaga sa buhay niya. Puro sama ng loob ang meron sa aken. Oh Well ! Stop being a bitter, girl ! Nothing's gonna happen. People Changed for Worst or Better. What Should I do? Accept It or Just Leave It ! :D

Priority, First of all.God & Studies. Love life? My time para diyan. Wala ren ako halaga. He Changed a Lot. Oh Well. Be Happy Marian ! :D Stay Pretty as Ever. Leave them Until He Realized that Your Really Worth as Diamond. Wee ! Expensive., Next Moment nanaman ah! Incomplete. Still Reminiscing the Past ! Wooo. Thanks for Reading ! Have fun.

2010-08-14T00:27:00.001-07:00

“It seems when you want someone, they don’t want you. And when someone wants you, you don’t want them. And when you both want each other, something has to come around and mess it up.”

Happy 40th Monthsary

2010-08-12T22:36:00.000-07:00

Aug.13,2010 - 40th Monthsary namin ni Babbyyminepot ko.

anlayo pa nun manxari amin advance na sia mggreet. kahet na my npgdaanan kmi ngeun aus na kami. d ko xpect na OL sia pra batiin lng nea ako ng matamis na Monthsary. Corny! :)

kahit 1hr lng kme ngusap sulet na. love .. love ko un. khet na malayo kme sa isa't isa. magin2 strong pren rel'n amin & no one can break us apart. :">

malapit na :) malapit ko na siya makasama. tiis lng una ngeun. mahal na mahal ko sia subra. subra mis ko n nga eh!. yep LDR po kami. nakasama ko lang sia ng ilan buwan, tsk! umalis na kc ako eh papnta dito ( Hawaii ) peo ngtgal aman kme ng gnito. TRUST lang & Always lagi nasa CENTER c GOD pra magtagal. thanks sa bati. share lang ako. :) Thanks God for this Day. Thanks to All of You Guys.

- Chrianz013forever-

haupia is the name :]

2010-08-10T23:45:00.000-07:00

i met this guy online. he added em on facebook. friend lng aman ni biep cu. :) aun .. msya ca asaran. una nga tnwag pa acu masunget. take note: ate dw? :)) ate aman tlga. but anyways d acu snay tntwag ng ate. it depends if i want? haha..

den bnara cu xia. he called em miss sunget. den. ngbuo kme col sign. he called em "shomai" and i called him "haupia". super close na haha! one day. take note.

kahafon:

mhigit 3hrs cu kausap sa ym haha.. den cam mode. grabe! pnkanta nea pa acu. maos pa hehe. eioon. bliwan mode. usap kwentuhan. andal2 cu dw. kea nga sia nt2himik na lng. oh well, ilan lng pnipili cu na mgin close. open acu kso i trust only once. if you made a mistake and ruined everything oh' well sorry. cause i told you from the start :DD okay. de javu na. iketch! XD

Aug. 9, 2010

2010-08-09T21:07:00.000-07:00

i dont expect. mgonline sia. grabe! ngusap kme.

ngsosori sia for waht hafen? ang sign cu nga dis comin manxari amin if d pa kme mkpgusap i let him go. grabe. ngsori sia den ngxplain.

peo ok aman sa aken. if d naniare un d cu mki2ta un mga dpat cu mkita at m22nan.

thanks God for this day! :)) love love..

miss ko na siya.

2010-08-07T17:46:00.000-07:00

no lies. im really miss him so much. :( sna gnun dn nararamdaman nea for me. sna maaus na toh! we don't even know anu ba talaga? if kami or inde. it's complicated ! ..

miss ko na mine ko.

kabiruan sa tx. kaasaran. ngb2gay ng advice. ngkwn22han sa mga nanaiare sa amin. mga bagay2 na wla man lng kbuluhan. 1week na :( gnito pren kmi. i wish sna maaus na. miss ko na siya subra ..
subra.. subra..

miss ko na tntwagan nea em minetot. :( nmi2s ko sia twagan minepot. huhuhu :(( mis na kita. mhal na mhal kta. aantay ako. malapit na kita makita.

love you minepot ko. subra :( im always be here for you. bc ka tlga.

Piece of Advice - Facebook.

2010-08-07T17:40:00.000-07:00

When you are important to another person, that person will always find a way to make time for you. No excuses, no lies, no broken promises.

July 30 - Aug, 2, 2010

2010-08-07T05:05:00.000-07:00

almost 1 week na. thanks God nkget over na ako. ang hrap tlga mgmove on. naawa ako sa sarili ko. msyado ako ngpakatanga. martyr. no offence.

gnun aman sa love db? you gave up everything juhs to make them happy. bkt gnun? you did all your effort den in the end? pra balewla lng.

ngeun dehy ask em. dehy want TIME and SPACE. makpgicp. pra my tym sa sarili amin. den mis nea ako? anu ba tlgah? nalilito na ako.

sa totoo lng. okay na ako. d ko maimagine. i end up my life. subra nsktan. bat now. wula na. glit na pinairal ko. after all. wla aman acu halaga ii.

nalilito pren ako. so sad.. gus2 ko maaus alitan amin. away amin yep i knoe. my mistake ako. isa lng aman gus2 ko. bat d nla maintndhan point ko? makasarili pa acu sa lgay ko toh. d cu lam cnu nakapitan cu sa tym na un. pra im so DOWN. nothings left for me. cuhs of love.

leessoon learnneeedd : wg mo subra ibgay lhat dpat mgtira pra sa sarili in the end tau pa mh2rapan. tsk!

love ko sia. kaya khet anu sket tinitiis ko. he gave up on em cuhs of my attitude. akala ko ba tnggap nea ako khet anu ako? now suko na sia yaw na nea. ewan! hehe :)) drama na.

kshootz!

2010-08-07T05:01:00.000-07:00

you GOTTA make a CHOICE. now its YOUR TURN.

true i made MISTAKES, but i still LEARNED.

it isnt up to ME. you gotta DECIDE.

do you WANT me IN or OUT of YOUR LIFE.

LDR ♥

2010-01-16T13:45:00.000-08:00

LDR -- LONG DISTANCE RELATIONSHIP is the hardest thing to handle.

To Keep Our Rel'n Strong and Healthy.

Our Love to Each Other is Just GIVE and TAKE.

STAY LOYAL TO EACH OTHER.

OUR L♥VE is STRONG THAT NO ONE CAN BREAK US APART.

IM NOT PERFECT.

2009-12-03T00:09:00.000-08:00

i am only HUMAN. im NOT PERFECT ..

i try to be cause that's what you want me to be.

i try to be the PERFECT GIRL in your EYES.

i try to be the PERFECT GIRLFRIEND ..

i do everything just for you not to leave me.

i do my best just to show im the one that you are looking for.

but yet..
i keep on tryin but still im NOT.

what should i do?

if only i know IM NOT REALLY PERFECT as what you really expected me to be

HURT ..

2009-11-15T23:33:00.000-08:00

i dont know what should i say..

i always been hurt many times!

is this the meaning of LOVE?

♥ HAPPY 31st MONTHSARY babymineko.

2009-11-12T20:22:00.000-08:00

mineko.

we belong together -- baby.

i miss those times when we were together.

holding hands with each other

i miss those hugs.your smile. your smell.the way you stare at me.

i cnt say anything ; " how much you love me that way ".

only i know & feel the love you wanted for me.

im lucky i have you in MY LIFE..

mine. i always here fer you..

i miss you so much.

all i wanted is YOU.

baby -- pls dnt leave em.

CHRISTOPHER DUEñAS -- MY LIFE . LOVE . and FOREVER .

04132007 - FRIDAY

♥ our 31st monthsary =]

i know we cnt celebrate this special day but i know someday we will.

thank GOD fer givin you in " MY LIFE " ..

-- lolove you.iheartyou.imissyousomuch .. babymineko.

[ thirteen♥ ] -- chrianzforever

HANGGANG KAIBIGAN LANG BA TALAGA?..

2009-11-07T17:35:00.000-08:00

Hanggang kaibigan na lang ba ang turing mo.
Ni nararamdaman ko ay balewala lang sayo.
Iniisip ko na hanggan doon na lang ba? “Kaibigan na lang ba habang buhay”..

Sana maisip niya ang lahat.
Iniisip ko na hanggang doon na lang!
Tama na, ”HANGGANG KAIBIGAN LANG BA TALAGA?”..
Lahat ng pagkukunwari ko ay balewala.

Siguro lilipas din ang panahon makakahanap din ako.
Yung nakalaan para sa akin.
Pero sana pag ako’y wala na sa tabi mo.
Sana maisip mo ang pagmamahal ko na inilaan ko sayo.

Buong buhay ko ipagpapalit ko,kamatayan man para sayo.
Masakit man aminin ang lahat ng pangyayari.
Siguro wala na talaga akong pag-asa.
“HANGGANG KAIBIGAN LANG TALAGA AKO?”..